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Listen to this while you read. It's nice.

I got my first paycheck from coaching. Unfortunately, it's smaller than it should be (that's what she said). At least I got some money i guess. I'll just have to confront Bill, my boss, with Kyle cause he got shorted too.


I've been thinking alot and after looking at pictures of my never-faltering, major-league crush that lasted throughout highschool, I've come to the conclusion that not only am I not ready for a relationship, I'm COMPLETELY opposed to the idea of someone being attached to me in any non-friend way. I don't want to be loved romantically. I won't get into how I simply do not believe romantic love exists, but since most people except that it does, I'll just say that I do Not want that.

After this girl thing I went through (and I guess am still going through), I realized that what I dislike, and, in fact, what makes me angry, is someone wanting to like me more than I like them. That was the first time that's ever happened to me. It sucks. I don't have to go very much out of my way to say that being on the other side and just conceiling it is way better, easier, and consuming of less energy.

I've been thinking why it is that I don't want to accept affection and I haven't really come to a conclusion. Maybe it's cause I feel like everything like that thrown my way is fake love. People convince themselves that there is such a thing as romatic love when really it's only a combination of like and lust. Love is something much bigger than person on person. It's something that you have to live. Love should escape from you at all times directed at people in particular but based only on physical proximity. Everyone should get a piece of everyone else. Communism Love? Maybe.


I've downloaded about 3 gig of music over the past 2 weeks and am still getting through the huge batch I got today but I have some recommendations already. I guess I'll explain what the song is like since alot of the remixers and/or bands I knew nothing about until now.


1. The Reeling (Sammy Bananas' Big Choon Mix) - Passion Pit
If you've never heard of Passion Pit, that's incredible for one since they've been blowing up almost as much as Phoenix as of late. This song is a little slow on the start (probably because it's over 7 min), but when it gets into that little diddy that is played out like Schroeder plays in Peanuts [you know...with his pointer fingers]) it makes you feel happy. I like feeling happy.


2. Pon De Floor (Chewy Chocolate Cookies Remix) - Major Lazer
Your mind will melt if you've heard the original and like it. You aren't ready for this song. I'll give you a hint that might prepare you a little bit, but I don't want to give away too much. It's a fun song anyway and the video is ridonkulous, but I like listening to this to add an extra little jn sais kwa. mouille!


3. Starry Eyed (Jakwob Remix) - Ellie Goulding
This is actually an incredible song as is. However, because I really like dubstep done well (thishas a good example of that), I love this track. She has a great voice and I'm sure will get pop-success soon enough.


4. Little Booty Girl - Thunderheist
I'm only sharing this because I didn't find it myself. Truthfully, I'd like to keep it all for myself. My girl Kaitlin I met in france sent me the video and I checked out the group. They're cool, this song rocks, and you will have a fun time if it's playing somewhere. I'll guarantee that.


5. Amazon (Diplo Mix) - M.I.A. Diplo's Myspace
Somehow, I have never heard this. I like Ciara and I like M.I.A. but more than either of them, I like Diplo. If you ask me who my favorite dj I've ever seen live is, I would say him. Her flow is kinda weird like always, but it's a pretty good combo. I just wonder what song he went into after that one. hum...
Anyway, you should keep on lookin cause they stay in the jar...



So that's what I have for you. Enjoi



BONUS: some of the originals/other remixes that I like a little less than the ones up there ↑.

The Reeling (Calvin Harris Remix) - Passion Pit

Pon De Floor ft. Sean Paul (Team Yee Remix) - Major Lazer

Starry Eyed - Ellie Goulding

Sweet Dirty Dreams Disposition (Val Kolton Mashup Remix) - The Temper Trap